Today as I was driving home from a running meet-up with two people I typically run track with I had a panic attack which surrounded the marathon.
Can I really run a full marathon?
Can I meet my goals?
Today, 6 miles seemed like a struggle at some points. How will I run 20 more successfully?
Why is it going to be hot?
Did I hurt my knee? Why did it mysteriously start hurting today at mile 2?
What shoes should I wear? The shoes that have 350+ miles on them? My speed work shoes, that I ran my most recent half in, but never farther? Or a new pair that have 30 miles logged on them?
Ah....I figured I would have at least one panic attack before the marathon. Here it is.
I need to think about all the hard work I've done in the past 4 months to get me to where I am today. There is nothing more I can do to prepare myself. Doing more right now will actually hurt me come race day. I need to focus on the positive.
Maybe I'll post my goals tomorrow...after my panic-attack is over.